Wednesday, October 04, 2006

In July I joined a local group called The Mommies Network - it's a national group with an online forum for moms, broken up by geographical areas (as in, I belong to Union county Mommies - all moms that live in the same county as I do.) I joined because I saw myself starting to kind of shut myself up - I never leave the house or do anything or go anywhere. I figured this would be a good way to get out of the house, meet people, and put a stop to my habit of becoming a withdrawn hermit when I'm depressed. We all talk constantly on the forum, but we also get together weekly for playdates for our kids or 'field trips' ot mom's night out stuff... We went to the park last week. There's a brunch in the morning that I'm going to. It's been a pretty good experience, as much as it isn't something I'd normally do. But lately, there's been so much talk about the holidays, and it just makes me want to scream.

I don't want to do Halloween, or Thanksgiving, or Christmas! I know it isn't fair to the other kids, and they're putting together Christmas lists and deciding what to be for Halloween. My husband is talking about how he's looking forward to the Turkey on Thanksgiving. I know I can't realistically just skip the holidays, but GOD how I want to just pretend they aren't coming!

Instead I'm Christmas shopping online, I've bought Terra's Halloween costume, we're planning where to trick or treat and doing all the crap that comes with this season. I wish I could just bury my head under my pillow for the next 3 or 4 months. Just tired of having to do what everyone else needs I guess.

posted by Erin @ 10:46 PM   1 comments

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Donovan "Nova" LeClair

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Nova was our second child to be born with congenital heart defects. We lost our daughter at 12 days after open heart surgery in 2001. Nova was born 12/2/05, with Pulmonary Atresia with VSD. He lived 6 weeks after surgery, and passed away on April 6th, 2006. This blog is his story, and the on-going story of how our family is dealing with the loss of our beautiful boy.
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