Wednesday, December 06, 2006
so tiredUGH! I am so tired of marking my mental calendar according to
how long it's been since or
should bes. Nova has been gone 8 months today.
We took the cake and toys to CVRU on his birthday. Shanda was there. I adore her. They're
all so sweet. We laughed and played with the toys and talked, and I fought the urge to ask if I could go visit with someone else's baby... They would've said no, privacy issues, plus, it just would have been weird, but I wanted to go see a baby. He spent so much time there...
I found a
very old picture of Tommy today, from when he was about 8 months old. I was shocked to see how much he and Nova looked alike. I never saw that before... I took me by surprise and I had to do a double take. I never thought about what Nova would have looked like when he grew up - maybe now I don't have to wonder.
I look at myself in the mirror and realize how gloomy I've become... How sad and old I look... How much
worse I'm coping than I was a few months ago...
posted by Erin @
9:21 PM
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